I want to cut away my pain, <br />make it all go away <br />even if it's only for a little while. <br />But I just don't have reason <br />to cut <br />my flesh deep enough <br />for it to work. <br />Trying to distract myself <br />from the calling blade. <br />But somehow I can't. <br />I light up a cig <br />than another and still want more. <br />Need another distraction, <br />don't want that much smoke <br />in my lungs. <br />I'm pacing, <br />running around in a small area <br />just like a caged animal. <br />I'll clean <br />organize <br />and perfect <br />until I have nothing left. <br />Stealing glances <br />at my hiding places. <br />My cigarettes <br />stashed under the dress of a doll my mother had given me. <br />How fitting. <br />My knife <br />hidden and safe in my top drawer. <br />They call to me, <br />they sing. <br />I long for them. <br />I swear, , <br />I need someone to love, <br />someone to help me stop. <br />Someone to hold me and take them away <br />from my cold, white hands. <br />Tell me they love me too much <br />to let me keep doing that. <br />They're still calling.<br /><br />Heart of Ice Die Die Die<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-need-someone-to-love/
