Dreams over-lapping <br />and changing. <br />Can't catch hold of what's real <br />and what's not. <br />I've never been happier <br />than when I was in his arms. <br />I was SO happy <br />and for once <br />I finally felt safe. <br />Like it didn't matter what I was. <br />But later, <br />I paid. <br />And I paid a lot <br />and I'm still paying. <br />I'm still crying <br />and my heart is still shattering. <br />Nothing will ever change that. <br />There's so many things I want to tell him. <br />He said that if I ever needed to talk <br />he would be there. <br />But he's never there <br />and the few times when he is <br />he's not really there. <br />At least, <br />not for me. <br />But I can't be mad at him for it, <br />I can't hate him for it. <br />I can't blame him. <br />I told him he was my sun, <br />but now it looks like <br />I'm a vampire <br />who still bleeds. <br /> <br />Dec.-15-09<br /><br />Heart of Ice Die Die Die<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/bleeding-vampire/
