Screaming on the inside. <br />Kicking and crying on the outside. <br />Wanting him back. <br />Needing to hear him. <br />Gasping, Trembling, Trying to find the words. <br />Getting mad, <br />Getting angry, <br />Hating the world, <br />Then breaking completely down. <br />Cant breathe, <br />Drowning in tears. <br />Sobbing hard, <br />Praying for God's help with everything I have. <br />Lump in my throat, <br />Knots in my stomach. <br />Tears soaking up my face. <br />The salty taste is in my mouth. <br />Wanting him to feel the love I feel for him. <br />Wanting him to see the pain he's putting me through. <br />Not strong enough. <br />Don't have the strength to hide the hurt. <br />Trying to hold back, but I am about to burst. <br />Feeling rejected, cant find what I've left behind. <br />Im losing faith, falling from grace, Im all over the place. <br />Lost inside. Not complete. <br />I need to step up and be strong. <br />Cant show him my weakness. <br />He wont see the tears behind these hazel eyes. <br />He'll never know how I truely feel. <br />Hoping he feels it too. <br />I wont give up. I cant. <br />I have to stay true. I will use the rest of my strength, I'll show him I love him. <br />Scared of rejection again. <br />I dont want it to come to that. <br />Terrified. <br />The thing I want most is the only thing that petrifies me.
