i dont understand... <br />how can it be? <br />after everything, how did it happen? <br /> <br />embedded in my heart, <br />like a scar i cant seem to get rid of, <br />a thread woven so tightly yet so beautifully... <br />how? <br /> <br />i never let u in. i never let u in that deeply. <br />so tell me, how did it happen? <br />i dont understand... <br /> <br />was it like a virus that invaded and slowly spread then took over? <br />maybe it was a sly and cunning move on ur behalf? <br />or lets just be honest... <br />maybe u were in there all along. maybe u hide inside a dark and deep corner i had unsupervised. <br />maybe i was too trusting. <br />or maybe subconcously i let u in; slipped you past the security, through the barriers and right to the centre. <br />maybe a part of me wanted u in... <br />i dont know, i dont understand... <br /> <br />why isnt it going away? why isnt it making any sense? <br />i tried so hard to avoid this happening, <br />i never gave u permission, i never let u in. <br />whatever it is, how ever it happened... plz leave. <br /> <br />so many conflicting thoughts and feelings, <br />so much confusion. <br /> <br />y dont u ask? y dont u care? <br />yet you do care, and you do ask <br />but you dont bother? <br />i dont understand... <br /> <br />why did u betray me? y did u lie? <br />why do you reveal some truth and keep the rest hidden? <br />i know what your hiding, so why dont you just say it? <br />but why do i still care? y r u still inside? y do i..... <br />love you <br />i dont understand... <br /> <br />security has been upgraded. logic has taken control. <br />i dont want you in. you wont be my weakness. <br />the reinforcemnts have taken charge, and you no longer have a grasp. <br />now you hang from my heart by a thread. although it is a thick thread, <br />although you may climb back to the top, <br />now it feels comfortable... now it feels safe. <br /> <br />now the sun shines again, <br />now i have let go... now im protected. <br />now it is cloaked. <br />now i understand.<br /><br />Tamara Tamz<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/embedded-deeply/
