I tell myself that everything's going to be ok, <br />that there is no reason for all this pain. <br />The time it took to change, the time it took to <br />see all those mistakes. <br />The life I had, I can't have back. The choices I made, <br />affected me in all those ways. <br /> <br />The mistakes I made have not been forgotten. <br />The tears I shed, the sounds I made, the feelings <br />that left me feeling in a different way. <br />Yet I can't see why these tears feel so unreal. <br />I'm not the same, my words are unsaid. <br />What I hide, is buried deep inside. <br /> <br />To know, to love, to breathe. <br />It hurts to know that I'll never be the <br />girl I used to be. The one that would always laugh, <br />the one that you knew would always be strong. <br />The feeling is real, the truth is sealed. <br />I cry in the dark, cuz I know I cut too deep. <br /> <br />The blood is like the rain, <br />in every way it drifts away. <br />The scars are real, but the wounds in the heart <br />are another mark. <br />If you only knew what I've been through, <br />or maybe you could take a walk in my shoes. <br /> <br />I'm not fake, I'm not a doll, <br />I just don't think I'm the same in any way. <br />So where did my soul go? <br />Why did I ever let it runaway? <br />What happened to that girl? <br /> <br />The one that could make you laugh, <br />the one that would always take you out? <br />What happened to that girl, <br />cuz I'm lost without her? <br />I'm no longer me, the mistakes changed me, <br />but did they change her? <br />If only I would know.<br /><br />Sarah Nicole Giroux<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-dont-feel-like-me-well-not-anymore/
