I never lied or tried to deceive you… <br />It was such a horrible spot you put me in. <br />I don’t think you really believe, <br />what you mean to me. <br />I just couldn’t believe, <br />if you did, <br />you would use me this way. <br /> <br />So sad I am, <br />in losing it all for you. <br />I feel this great burden you provided me. <br />Sending me the choice of what to do, <br />it was beyond my control. <br />What a choice to make, <br />losing in the end either way. <br /> <br />I just want to fade away, <br />go off and lose myself. <br />Today the day you went… look at my sad face, <br />it’s all I can do to hold control. <br />You just don’t get it, <br />that you are the fatal disease to me… <br />I just think about you leaving, <br />something wants me to die inside. <br /> <br />I wish I could be cold, and walk away from this. <br />Never will, I know, you walked away from this. <br />I wish I could have some apathy, <br />not give a damn, what you have done to me. <br />Wish I could change the love for hate, <br />I just don’t think I could do this to you. <br /> <br />I don’t give a damn of my own isolation… <br />I lost it all and care nothing anymore for myself… <br />I am so full of pain and agony, <br />all I can do to live day to day. <br />I won’t give up on you, I don’t think I ever can. <br /> <br />I don’t know if I can be strong enough to see…. <br />It’s all been what it’s meant to be. <br />Guaranteed to just tear me all apart, <br />leaving me so twisted and bent. <br />Walking alone down this foggy road.<br /><br />Kevin Carney<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/decieve-you/
