Confusion, uncertainties, low self esteem <br />Depression, tearfulness, fear in its extreme <br />Loss of self confidence in everything <br />That’s all I have experienced <br />How really, really dim. <br /> <br />My greatest sin, a shadow of love <br />For I have prayed day and night <br />The love in me may subside <br />Anger, hatred that’s what I found <br />Inside my heart, it comes alive. <br /> <br />I thought for awhile, bear in mind <br />That if I am as cold as an ice <br />I will not be hurt, sad in life <br />They will not care I told myself <br />Who do really care, I mutter. <br /> <br />But I was wrong, how selfish I was <br />Because the greatest gift of God above <br />Is the grace of love that He gave for us <br />The love, faith and hope I should have <br />To conquer the fear that once I had. <br /> <br />Now I knew that in our life <br />Food, shelter and air are not enough <br />God whispered to me one starry night <br />That without love in our heart <br />Our bones will dry, our spirit died. <br /> <br />Without that trauma and tears I sowed <br />I would never know God loves me so <br />He stayed, never leave me though <br />I was a fool to ignore Him I knew <br />Forgive me Lord, change me a new. <br /> <br />I considered all these sufferings <br />Not a cruel fate though it may seem <br />But the brightest light, rays that gleam <br />An opener to the concealed dreams <br />To reclaim the love I had lost in dim. <br /> <br />Unusual things happened in my life <br />As I looked back, now I’ve realized <br />God has a purpose, He lifted me up <br />So that I can change, He gave me chance <br />To redirect my way into His path. <br /> <br /> <br />(the very first poem I've made)<br /><br />Diana Rose<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/awakenings-6/
