For a long time now I have felt the void in my heart <br />My happiness is split into pieces as from a pie chart <br />One section alone never gets enough honest attention <br />Satisfaction comes in small doses hardly worth to mention <br />I smile but it never leaves the surface and only touches skin <br />It feels as swimming with a strong current knowing to win <br /> <br />I long to feel more like touching thunder and lightening <br />But I am unengaged and nothing that emerges is exciting <br />Everything is easy and I am floating downstream very tamed <br />Without giving in to passion my life appears to be maimed <br />Whenever I look in the mirror I still recognize what is hiding <br />But I am uninspired and remain silent giving in and abiding <br /> <br />From my front window I see the world walk on by every day <br />But I stand muted and confined in my plastic bubble I stay <br />Is contentment really only a state of the mind and resting <br />Something that slyly bypasses my soul without protesting <br />Or is it something that is achieved with practice and loss <br />That crept into my routine like a rescue by the Red Cross <br /> <br />In steralyzed packages I learned to confine my emotions <br />Protecting them from life applying layers of numbing lotions <br />I no longer wail in sorrow due to disapointments and pain <br />Because everything is alright and I have no reason to complain <br />Hurtful words ricochet of my pride and all wounds have healed <br />For now my slumbering memories are temporarily concealed<br /><br />Kristina Louisa Carr<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/temporary-contentment/
