Walking though the hallway of my mind <br />Looking at everything I’ve left behind <br />All The ghosts that refused to die <br />And the lingering question of Why? <br /> <br />I try to hide the past inside <br />Behind a two-faced mask <br />And despite my efforts to forget <br />All these memories seem to stick <br /> <br />My Mind wandering to a time of peace <br />And yet I find no such thing <br />Only memories of her drunken stupors <br /> <br />The moment her hands reach my clothes <br />And the smell of her gin and tonic touch my nose <br />Before I know what going on <br />Im the floor motionless as before <br /> <br />Caught in the broken memories <br />Getting lost in my mind <br />Sifting through all the thoughts <br />I thought were locked up <br />So much to forget <br />And yet no place to put it <br /> <br />Now there in my mind, behind an iron wall <br />Thinking it would never fall <br />But just my luck <br />All the memories flood back <br />And I'm pushed back into my past <br /> <br />Drowning in an ocean of my life <br />I still try to look at the bright side <br />Nothing I can do <br />Nothing I can say <br />Will ever make these memories fade away <br /> <br />But I have a lifetime left ahead of me <br />And I'm not ganna let this hold me back <br />I have so much time to make new memories that outshine <br />All the Nightmares of my Past…<br /><br />Olivia Elise Braun<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/drowning-in-the-past-2/
