I watch our love dissipate <br />Smoke in the air <br />Like everything else, <br />I'm sure it lingers somewhere <br />Ten millions tears <br />And now I am dead <br />But your enflamed ego <br />Mistakes the message for flattery instead <br />You love my pain <br />It feeds you, you say? <br />Does my obsession with death make you uncertain? <br />Well, I apologize if I'm ready to close the curtain <br />This play it has ended <br />The grand performance is finished <br />The actors fade out <br />As their spirits diminish <br />I wanted control, I wanted to own it <br />But the tasks seems impossible for just even a moment <br />To unravel my mind is to make it through a maze <br />And, I'm lost in the struggle <br />Of a cluster-fu*ked haze <br />With an army of soldiers, war floods my minds <br />As the bullets they rip, and they tear and they grind <br />Through the very fiber that produces a soul <br />But, something is missing- <br />There's a big gaping hole! <br />I cannot fit in, or be shoved in some slot <br />I cannot pretend to be something <br />Or someone that I'm not! <br />Because for every definition <br />There's a very thin line <br />So to search and comprehend- <br />It's an impossible find! <br />All that I see is opposites standing on one end from the other <br />Yet the line it grows thin <br />And soon their overlapping each other! <br />All of it bleeding, one thing into the next <br />As I try to understand-feeling like I'm cursed or I'm hexed! <br />So, try to define me! -go on, I dare you! <br />My happy place is fu*ked up, <br />Yeah, my happy place it would scare you!<br /><br />Nicole Settimi<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/with-everything-comes-the-inevitable-blossoming-of-it-s-opposite/
