Whenever I’m near you <br />I cannot speak <br />For on the inside I feel very weak... <br />So I hide myself behind an invisible wall <br />To talk to you I don’t have the guts at all... <br />But when we do speak I enjoy every second <br />To open up my heart has beckoned... <br />Some days I become very sad <br />The scars on my arms show that I’m mad... <br />I was angered when I learned that you belonged to someone else <br />The searing pain was worse than a thousand hells... <br />It hurt like a knife straight through my heart <br />You tore it to pieces, you tore it apart... <br />I cried tears of blood, tears of blood for you <br />Great agony I felt when my heart split in two... <br />But there is hope <br />For when we hug it helps me cope <br />With the pain I feel whenever I’m near you... <br /> <br />There is a voice inside my head <br />Telling me to talk to you now or I’ll regret it when I’m dead... <br />With your perfect features and perfect hair <br />To complement you I would not dare... <br />Words cannot describe how beautiful you are <br />But when I look into your eyes I still feel far... <br />I know he loves you and that you love him <br />But in my mind there is a sense of grim... <br />I’ve tried many things to push the negative thoughts away <br /> But no matter what I do the pain comes back out of the fray... <br />If you are around I will hide the pain <br />With a face that says I’m completely sane... <br />I do not know what you think of me <br />So will you just answer my one and only plea? <br />But I cannot ask you <br />For whenever I’m near you... <br />I cannot speak <br />For on the inside I feel very weak... <br />So I hide myself behind an invisible wall <br />To talk to you I don’t have the guts at all...<br /><br />C. K. Young<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/whenever-i-m-near-you/
