Anticipating her calls <br />When the call for break dawns <br />Waiting for a reply <br />Wondering what's on her mind <br />Can never lose sight <br />Cos she's such a blinding light <br />Tonight, She hardly knows how I feel <br />As she's never keeping still <br />I just want to say I love her <br />But I can never find the words <br />I won't put the stars above her <br />That's why this fucking hurts <br />I try my best to show her <br />But I some times choke <br />I try my best to know her <br />No longer that whore for coke <br />It rips me, tears me and breaks me <br />If she lips me here it'll make me <br />Wishful thoughts are a taunt <br />More than that body she flaunts <br />Some times I feel like giving up <br />Cos it ain't real me ever feeling up <br />That softness she attains <br />But I still put myself through pain <br />Not for illness, sickness nor death <br />Or romantic bullshit you expect <br />Just to stop me becoming a mess <br />Cos living with out her is the test <br />As no happiness will be in my world <br />That's why I work hard <br />To stay sane by this girl.<br /><br />Zoe Christo<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/anticipating-her-calls/
