Why? <br />Dearest fellow was it paramount <br />My attempted suicide <br />Needed to be <br />Perfectly placed as a masterpiece I faced <br />The quelling thirsting sea.... <br /> <br />Sat as a random stone....tossed <br />Thoughts lost <br />Head hung in defeat <br />Painfilled shame <br />Central (left) to the frame <br />And the mind games <br />Oh those twisted mine games <br />As I.... sat beached <br /> <br />The pills sat as pearls <br />Glistening tempting thought whirls <br />And for <br />Just one moment.... <br /> <br />I loved them <br /> <br />Cherished them <br />Popped a few in.. <br />Sharing my Alice in Wonderland....grin <br />With absolutely no-one... <br /> <br />Slip through the hatch <br />Slide by... <br />Tippy-toed reaching latch <br />Escapism from the world of plenty <br />Which hath scarred and just lent me <br />So many hurts <br />So many drunken blurt out statements <br />Of childhood <br />Adulthood <br />Resentments <br /> <br />So you took me to the residential home of the old (surely that isn't my goal) <br />And the YMCA <br />I'm female, totally wrong for me but hey! <br />At least you gathered a grin <br />Just before i dived neederly in... to <br />That pill pot of plenty <br />Just felt like it was meant to be <br />My very last day <br /> <br />And farcical in reflective mode <br />That your cruelty should goad <br />Me halfway to Hell and back <br />Suffering your tasteless flak <br />But sweet heart be careful and <br />Remember <br /> <br />Please..... <br />Mind the cracked<br /><br />karen sinclair<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/elegant-suicide/
