My days and nights have become slumberless, <br />Dearest, the pains in my heart are numberless; <br />My yearnings shall never get through to you, <br />Not where the black coach of separation has taken you; <br />I can no longer walk down from the top of the hill, <br />And stay with you under the mango tree; <br />Beautiful beginnings, remembering how we started, <br />The hours we spent together cannot be counted; <br />Every second with you was like eternity, <br />Your presence always engulfed me in captivity; <br />We smiled, talked, played and laughed together, <br />Separated ourselves from the world just to be with each other; <br />Inseparable, unbreakable and invincible, <br />To others our love was enviable; <br />We had high hopes of being together forever, <br />Having pretty kids to call us father and mother; <br />Alas all of that was only a mirage, <br />When on that fateful day I received a sad message. <br /> <br />Sorrow and sadness then became my best friends, <br />My entire life spiralled to a dead end; <br />What used to be my sweetest reality, <br />Has turn out to be nothing but sad memory; <br />A dream unfulfilled, promises unkept, <br />Leaving my heart and my soul unkempt; <br />I want to take a little boat and go out to sea, <br />And never come back to this harsh reality; <br />Or maybe paint a picture I'll forever loath, <br />My paintbrush will be a razor and the canvas my throat; <br />For I and my heart have decided to end it all, <br />Soon there'll be flowers, prayers, candles and all; <br />Let all know that I am glad to go, <br />Where the pain and sorrow shall no longer flow; <br />In death I can no longer think of you, <br />For death is not my dream where I still caress you; <br />And so with the last breath of my soul, <br />I pray and bless you, that you may remain whole.<br /><br />Peter Nwadike<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/last-breath-of-my-soul/
