I used to be happy but somehow it seems <br />that the happiness has been drained from me <br />Its like staring at a black hole in to the abyss <br />I wonder does happiness even exist <br />Its been so long now since Ive had the feeling <br />of laughter, joy, excitement or something to believe in <br />maybe its a bad time and we all do get down <br />but to me this has been slow and painful am I in quicksand? will I drown? <br />I want to go back to a time when things were going well <br />I was once happy but now it feels like im stuck in a cell <br />Staring at 4 walls of different colours but the only colour I see <br />is black and the colour is getting bigger engulfing me <br />What would I give to see the other colours again <br />to feel happy or excited instead of this mental heart pain <br />To some my problems seem silly I think its because they don't understand <br />but how could they? they haven't seen through my eyes at the bitter torment and pain I have suffered on this land <br />I cant tell them everything because they would then hurt too <br />my secrets I take to the grave that's the path choose<br /><br />Elusive Conclusive<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-used-to-be-happy-2/
