Not both, not I. <br />Not now, not here. <br />Pretty soon, I don't know what. <br />I can't be either but I can't be none. <br />Not without her, but I'm sure as hell not with her. <br />A slight rumble on red knuckles as the lights dim. <br />Not what I'd hoped for and not what I expected. <br />Please choose me, or anyone, anyone but him. <br />It's likely I'll force my way through life without <br />you until I can no longer withstand the distance. <br />Shakes and sleep overcome my displaced thoughts. <br />I feast to appease the concerned, <br />To pass their glances aside. <br />I take oxygen in strides. <br />Lowered expectation, <br />Shortened breath. <br />Getting closer, <br />To my own, <br />Death.<br /><br />Benjamin Feliciano<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/yes-yes-said-the-pessimist/
