His words cut through the war in my head <br />Telling me, I’d be loved, to go back to bed <br /> <br />I should have told him then <br />I should have told him then <br /> <br />You can only be saved once, he whispered <br />I let him decide and he lingered <br /> <br />I should have told him then <br />I should have told him then <br /> <br />All my hopes were broken <br />But he healed them with words he’d spoken <br /> <br />I should have told him: <br />That I wasn’t about to fade <br />Because you had already had me saved <br /> <br />I should have told him: <br />You are still here though, <br />I am waiting for the final blow <br /> <br />I should have told him: <br />That now I sit and wait <br />Hoping not to speed up fate <br /> <br />I should have told him: <br />I must thank you for being there <br />for reminding me of breathing air <br /> <br />I should have told him: <br />I wonder if you know <br />That I love you so <br /> <br />I should have told him: <br />You will always be at least my friend <br />Whom I pray for, and my love I send <br /> <br />... <br /> <br />But now it is too late for that, <br />For not even his pretty cat, <br />Can see the man that we adore, <br />As he is not the same anymore.<br /><br />Ruth Gordon<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-should-have-told-him/
