ive thought to myself <br />why do i bother living <br />what am i waiting for <br />why do i stall <br />but i still hesitate <br />hesitate to end it <br />i hesitate because i still hope <br />i still wonder <br />what if i miss something <br />what if something better will come along <br />what if i find a cure <br />then i wold have ended it in vain <br />then there would have been no point in finishing it <br />there was still a chance <br />and i missed it <br />i wasted my life <br />what do i have to show of my time <br />nothing <br />i should have stayed <br />i'm such an idiot <br />why did i give up <br />why did i loose hope <br />why didn't i just be strong <br />it could have gotten better <br />but instead i give up <br />and bring pain <br />not only to myself <br />but those who supposedly cared for me <br />who loved me but never told me <br />how could i have been so foolish <br />how could i have been so selfish <br />what did i gain out of it <br />nothing <br />i only lost <br />lost my life <br />lost my chance of happiness <br />lost my chance of hope <br />how could i do this to myself <br />everything i thought was wrong <br />i wasn't alone <br />people did care for me <br />people would have missed me <br />i was noticed <br />how was i unaware of all this <br />why didn't anybody tell me <br />why did they let me suffer <br />why...<br /><br />Wandering Scarlet<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/hope-101/
