So I write <br />I write about my love for you <br />the feelings that occur while <br /> <br />I go through this motions <br />of not having you besides me when <br />I awake in the mornings <br /> <br />and knowing that the only thing that matters <br />in the end <br />is the love you have for me <br /> <br />I write <br />I write about my kids <br />and how to go about trying to make <br /> <br />there lives easier <br />to show then that I love them <br />more then they can imagine <br /> <br />I write <br />I write about my life <br />that seems to be falling apart <br /> <br />all around me <br />my mind that seems to poison <br />every good thought <br /> <br />every hopeful motive <br />all my faith and trust <br />that I had inside myself <br /> <br />so now <br />I try <br />I try to understand his problems <br />and know that I cant help him with it <br />but still keep in mind that he <br /> <br />loves me <br />in hopes that he will return to me <br />I try <br /> <br />to spend all my time with my kids <br />and not wander off into my own <br />private hell <br /> <br />and show them everyday that I DO love them <br />I try <br />to keep my faith in God <br /> <br />and believe that he has a plan that will suit me <br />so until then <br />I will focus on all the things I lack <br /> <br />This has gotta be the hardest thing and most difficult <br />moment in my life <br />to actually do something for myself <br /> <br />that will benefit me and my life <br />all my years was taking care and worrying about <br />everyone and everything else <br /> <br />making sure that everyone else was happy <br />I thought that all ended <br />only come to realize that im still the same <br /> <br />this is for him <br />my love, the other half that makes me whole <br />my bestest friend Randy <br /> <br />I love you so <br />just to hear those words come outta your mouth <br />it feels so good <br /> <br />the littlest things like the words <br />i love you too <br />can heal any broken heart<br /><br />Phats Love<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/so-i-write/
