she asks me why. <br />why did i do something i'd regret? <br />why did i let go of something i know i cant live without? <br />and i just stare back. i don't know. <br />maybe it was the right thing to do. <br /> <br />maybe. <br /> <br />she laughs at me, she calls me a fool. <br />look at you now. <br />can you take it? <br />i shake my head, no, i can't. <br />yet, i had to, <br />it was the right thing to do. maybe. <br /> <br />she nods. yes, you're crazy. <br />you need him dont you? <br />you cant bear to part with him, yet you did. <br />i smiled at myself. of course i need him. <br />of course i do. <br />my life crumbled down, i just couldnt break his too. <br />that would be selfish, and that's wrong. <br />so i did what i did. <br />maybe it was the right thing to do. <br /> <br />she sighs. what now? <br />you've washed your hands of him, yet you watch, <br />your eyes still search for him and you long to hear his voice again. <br />what now? <br />i looked away. yes, it's true. <br />shameful as it was, i stalk him. <br />maybe stalk is too weak a word. <br />i still need him but no, i cant do that. <br />i'll just fade from his life. silently, like a dying flame. <br /> <br />his life should be perfect. he deserves it. <br />and i'd do anything to keep him happy, <br />because. <br />i loved him, still love him, and i guess, <br />i'll always love him...<br /><br />Fathimath Farha<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-still-love-him-5/
