Shadows are comforting companions quiet and gentle <br />Reflecting on my actions nothing appears to be accidental <br />Surrounded by darkness or a very dim light I am free <br />Admitting to my true feelings I make you the trustee <br /> <br />You said you envisioned a shadow above your head <br />Now you know it was me and just like a dark threat <br />In my room when everything turns to grey and stone <br />It is you I seek out and to you I truly wish to atone <br /> <br />I want to apologize for everything that I will do wrong <br />For not being there when you need me and for being gone <br />I cheated myself pretending that I dont need you at all <br />Now I wish I could take it back and stay for the long haul <br /> <br />Please believe that you are the only one that I ever needed <br />All else fades in the shade and nothing important preceded <br />Forgive me for not being by your side every day of the year <br />I take full responsibility for leaving and my sorrow is severe <br /> <br />Being sorry is probably not enough for you but please know <br />I can still feel you every second of the day from head to toe <br />I am begging you to release my free will and letting me forget <br />But I guess that wouldn't be fair to you so I remain in your debt <br /> <br />I'm not sure if I ever get closure with you and come to an end <br />But to you I like to make amends and it is my love I apprehend <br />I hope that you're o.k. and your heart does not bleed like mine <br />Knowing that I deserve this I'm saying sorry again and resign <br /> <br />© 2011<br /><br />Kristina Louisa Carr<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/atonement-13/
