i perfectly know what i want <br />what i love much <br />and i always think about it <br />all the nights and days of my life <br />i cannot tell you because you are my friend <br />and so i keep it all inside my <br />heart and mind <br />sometimes when i am alone in my room <br />i touch this body and feel this soul <br />i close my eyes to feel whole of it <br />my tongue sings with joy <br />my hands dance the arabesque in my fingers <br />i do not jump <br />i am afraid i can be heard <br />and you may ask about the noise of my joy <br />and so i am as silent as the carpet on my floor <br />i am a very patient man <br />when we meet i pretend i do not have any desire <br />that i have long forgotten love <br />and lust <br />but if you only know <br />i am holding hands with these two <br />close friends in my mind <br /> <br />do not think about me <br />i am an expert about numbness <br />i have mastered pretense <br />and i can manage <br />i'll win i will.<br /><br />Sebastian Soberania<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/the-hidden-self-and-the-strong-facade/
