He has lost him completely. And now he is seeking <br />on the lips of every new lover <br />the lips of his beloved; in the embrace <br />of every new lover he seeks to be deluded <br />that he is the same lad, that it it to him he is yielding. <br /> <br />He has lost him copmletely, as if he had never been at all. <br />For he wanted -- so he said -- he wanted to be saved <br />from the stigmatized, the sick sensual delight; <br />from the stigmatized, sensual delight of shame. <br />There was still time -- as he said -- to be saved. <br /> <br />He has lost him completely, as if he had never been at all. <br />In his imagination, in his delusions, <br />on the lips of others it is his lips he is seeking; <br />he is longing to feel again the love he has known.<br /><br />Constantine P. Cavafy<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/in-despair/
