Every night seems a little longer, <br />trying to find my way in the dark. <br />Crawling through these endless thoughts, <br />hoping to reach the finishing line. <br /> <br />Without knowing why these feelings emerge, <br />sensing as if I’m being pulled beneath the surface. <br />A distorted view from below the playing field, <br />aware that nothing is fair in love at all. <br /> <br />Each night I am drawn to you, <br />in my numbing sleepiness I find your apparition. <br />Keeping the secrets close to heart, <br />not divulging the truth as I awake in the light. <br /> <br />But my heart empties each morning, <br />the scent of you dissipating with the morning mist. <br />Opening a defect that cannot be mended, <br />an anomaly beyond all medical science or personal will. <br /> <br />I suffer each day from your absence, <br />thinking only of my next sleep. <br />To awake before you in the deepest time, <br />sharing what I cannot reveal in the open. <br /> <br />My love, I’m dying in my dreams, <br />knowing that you’re not really here. <br />With someday needing to face the reality of it all, <br />admitting I am a fool for my love for you.<br /><br />Gary Scott Gebert<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-m-dying-in-my-dreams/