i take a deep breath and close my eyes, <br />disappearing into the place I can hide if only sporadically, <br />deep inside my head away from disturbing eyes that haunt, <br />still my mind is full of people who listen in on my thoughts trespassing on foreign ground, <br />criticising the way I think the way I breathe and the way I live, <br />not understanding that sometimes you just need to vent your feelings, <br />never minding how they look on the page. <br /> <br />if I let you in my head and give you the keys to every locked door, <br />then please tread carefully, <br />each line and every wire is fragile. <br /> <br />i take a deep breath and go deeper into myself to the only place I am safe with only my thoughts to fear, <br />thoughts of suicide missions to fix the impossible, thoughts of murder just to get people to SHUT UP, <br />thoughts of giving up and just settleing with what I already have, <br />giving up the fight for more, giving up the fight for a full life. <br /> <br />can you truly be held responsible for someone elses actions if you knew what they were doing and they ended up dying? <br /> <br />just breathing deeply living in my head, <br />closing doors on people I once let in, <br />going deeper and deeper inside my own head, <br />closing doors on people I once let in, <br />going deeper and deeper inside my own head, <br />so that when I finaly give up the fight and die no one shall even notice and ill just be left alone with the silence of my thoughts. <br /> <br />But none of this really matters, one day I will grow up, and the hand that would have once clicked send without hesitation, will click <br />delete.<br /><br />Laura Cummings<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/hiding/
