How can I be happy <br />when I know you are so sad? <br />It's impossible for me to forget <br />all the troubles you are going through. <br />Why do I try? <br /> <br />Am I selfish for wishing I didn't care? <br />Sometimes I get so angry at myself <br />because I want to be happy. <br />I don't want to think of you <br />suffering. <br /> <br />But then I think of you. <br />You are so sad. <br />You are so depressed <br />and alone. <br />You turn to me as if I can help <br />but, I can't help. <br />I don't know how. <br />All I can do is say I care... <br />because I do. <br />I really do! <br /> <br />But, is caring enough? <br />Is it really enough to make a difference? <br />I fear it isn't. <br />So then I'm angry <br />because I feel like I'm letting you down. <br />I should be able to do something. <br />But, I can't. <br /> <br />What type of rotten person <br />must I be........... <br />to get upset because I'm sad <br />for you? <br /> <br />Isn't that the ultimate in selfishness <br />to feel angry that your happiness <br />is being disrupted by another's pain? <br />I'm sorry for being so selfish. <br />I wish I knew how to help you.<br /><br />Mary Nagy<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/please-forgive-this-truly-rotten-person/
