Why do i have to live in pain from years ago and recent <br />I try to shut out all the pain and to you be so decent <br />I bury it all and shut it out and it always will erupt <br />Trying to be always loving and forget so I won't be abrupt <br />I'm held captive in my mind, the pictures dance in my head <br />I can't forget the past, my mind busy when I go to bed <br />My emotions take me where I don't want to be any more <br />I'm a prisoner to bad memories, where I can't even the score <br />I start to sink into a deep black hole, where there is no light <br />I have to pull myself up again, not ready to give up the fight <br />I am a survivor now, I escaped the pain and sorrow <br />I'm over it now but it will be there when I wake up tomorrow <br />I asked god, please let me forget and make it go away <br />But the memories are there though buried, they plan to stay!<br /><br />Donna Nimmo<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/bad-memories/
