“Scream and cry in your eternal sufferance, <br />Always in yourself, in that black hole, <br />In that abyss you’ll stay, forever doomed! ” <br />Howls the wind, blowing in my ear, <br />As I run towards a lonely house, <br />In this frozen desert. <br /> <br />There is no silence, before healing, <br />No bliss, before you wish the pain is over... <br />A vampire’s kiss drowns in my flesh, <br />Sucking away all of my will to live... <br /> <br />Seductive, elusive as a cheating lover, <br />Gentle and caring as a mother, <br />My pain stays with me! <br /> <br />Morning’s wrathful kiss awakes all of my senses, <br />Like the whipping of a chain on sensitive skin! <br />I know it does damage to my mind, <br />But I cannot stop... <br />Maybe I love my pain, <br />Memories of a past life, <br />Memories, images from my past <br />Unfold before my eyes... <br /> <br />Daylight, nightfall, <br />Pain, wishing for a cure, <br />The wish brings even more pain, <br />My senseless sensuality, my crave, <br />My biggest pain... <br /> <br />Crystal clear night falls again, over me, <br />But this time I almost drag its hands, towards me, <br />For the night to come upon me, <br />Cover me deeply! <br />Cover me completely, <br /> <br />Winter nights are like this... <br />So lonely, feeling abandoned. <br />It doesn’t matter how hard I try, <br />The pain is too big, too deep, <br />For me to displace it... <br /> <br />The wind and the wolves howl outside, <br />Giving this dismal scent to winter’s melody... <br />My pain rests inside of me! <br /> <br />©Elya Thorn. Do not republish without permission! <br />Part of 'Dark Whisperings and Invocations'<br /><br />Elya Thorn<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/introspective-in-a-winter-night/
