Your naked body, mother, I held onto tightly after running up the stairs. It felt gross but i chose to stay sitting between ur legs trying not to notice ur pubic hairs.. oddly enough.. I felt safe there... <br /> <br />because in the doorway he now stood.. looking as guilty as he could.. <br /> <br />when moments ago right downstairs he spit out his first outrageous lie: 'wha.. what.... where am i? ' sleepwalking? ! I think not.. but im still shocked... that u never let me keep any doors locked.. and now his excuses u *f-ing bought! <br /> <br />You spent a hundred grand on two hot shot lawyers from Florida to come defend the man that would jack off to thoughts of banging ur 12 yr. old child! ! ! You even picked up the phone and for the operator you dialed.. <br /> <br />wanting me to be psycho-analyzed... told the psychiatrist i was making up lies.. begging them, 'help her, please! ' as if i had some kind of disease.. then u sent me off to live with my oldest brother for a while... but u brainwashed him and my other brother too.. so much like u, they became in denial. <br /> <br />Had no choice then.. moved in with dad. The next 10 yrs. ive been living quite sad.. and even wondering at times if I should have just made ur boyfriend glad.. shut up and been grateful for all that i had. <br /> <br />You have a 5 yr. old grandson you don't even want to see... <br />Even though your dearest, mommy, has now confessed to what he did to me. My dad knows u really well, though, and he explained as best as he could. He says to forgive u, I should, because u supposedly mean well, and silently my happiness u actually condone.. (it's just that u suffer from a wreched fear) .. ur so afraid to be alone.<br /><br />Stacy Collinsworth<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/so-afraid-to-be-alone/
