I fear my little child. <br /> <br />I fear that she will not feed and grow strong and healthy, <br />I fear that she will stop breathing when I am out of the room or selfishly asleep, <br />I fear that she will become ill because of something I have done or did not do, <br />I fear that she will be in pain and I will not know why. <br /> <br />I fear that her father will reject her, <br />I fear that her father will reject me, <br />I fear that her father will compete for her love and that she will love him more, <br />I fear that her father will be distant and that she will not love him enough. <br /> <br />I fear that others will think that I am incompetent, <br />I fear that others will assume that I am capable, <br />I fear that others will force upon me unhelpful or unwanted advice, <br />I fear that others will believe I can cope. <br /> <br />I fear the loneliness of endless days without contact, <br />I fear the emptiness of endless nights without love, <br />I fear the weakness of endless days without proper meals, <br />I fear the weariness of endless nights without sleep. <br /> <br />I fear inexperience. <br />I fear uncertainty. <br />I fear guilt. <br />I fear despair. <br /> <br />I fear my little child.<br /><br />Teedy Dawn<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/postnatal-depression/
