Well, I am suffocating, and feel like crying, <br />But the tears are playing hide and seek in my eyes, and refuse to let go <br />I feel ugly, and depressed, I feel lonely and compressed <br />The walls of my room close on me more and more till my soul disappears <br />And just when the pain goes away, I feel like dying... <br />I lost track of time, and space, and can't think or move... <br />My life freezes in a moment, and refuses to continue the road... <br />As if my heart plays the drums, speeding heart beats and rage... <br />Inner power so compressed that if unleashed it could harm <br />Burns and scars all over my body, conquering pain by pain <br />My bed becomes so uncomfortable that I sleep on the floor <br />And when I finally feel peace, the demons in my head awake <br />And hunt me down to destroy what's left of me <br />No one can save me from my loneliness but you <br />When I try to scream and shout, silence echoes in my ears <br />Reflecting all of my fears, reflecting my past <br />My present is this moment, but this moment is the past <br />My future becomes this moment, my story will never last <br />I never accomplished anything, I will never be remembered <br />I will die alone... I will die alone... <br /> <br />(Tuesday, March 7,2006,2: 40 am)<br /><br />Elie Abou Chaaya<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/darkness-of-my-soul/
