It's creeping slowly into my blood <br />This feeling of desolation and madness <br />Swirling inside my voids when I look at you <br />Confused as to why my mind is fantasizing <br />Why my body is materializing <br />Why my emotions are stabilizing... <br /> <br />Has this been here all along or just began? <br />Have I always longed for you or only now? <br />Did I wish for this forever or did it start today? <br /> <br />Was I supposed to take this forbidden step over you <br />Make that fateful choice into the unknown <br />Open myself to breaking completely again <br /> <br />With you I have no ideas <br />No where to run to <br />No place to hide... <br />So maybe I'll just lay my head on your shoulder <br />Or whisper that I'm looking at you <br />In a light that only now appeared to my eyes <br />And it's beautiful.<br /><br />Deana Rode<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/2004-the-change/
