Hatred from the inside, <br />From the outside. <br />Following my peers, <br />Living in homophobia of myself. <br />My parents never short of comments, <br />Sowing seeds of disapproval, <br />Budding into self hatred. <br />I repressed the desire to be myself, <br />Taunting boys in my own image, <br />A tortured soul, <br />Torturing souls. <br />Homophobic from the inside, <br />Not wanting to be me. <br />Why couldn't I be normal and love a girl named Susie, <br />Have 2.4 children and live happily ever after? <br />Lay at night self harming, <br />Wishing my desires away. <br />I detested my desire for cock, <br />Detested what I had become. <br />Would I carry the plague that was sent from god to rid us of our sins? <br />Never being able to give blood ‘cause of the high risk we carry. <br />I'm one of them that like it up the chute! <br />I was a boy lost in hatred of what I feared, <br />Fearing the love of another, <br />Homophobia from the within!<br /><br />Joseph Tanner<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/homophobia-from-the-inside/
