Am I really sick? <br />Not that ive been diagnosed <br />Schizophrenic <br />or even depressed for that matter. <br />Its just a war - in me <br />Not like most though <br />Not like good or evil <br />Or even balck or white with <br />enough space for a little grey area on the side. <br /> <br />My identites dont seem to want to agree... <br />Am I Melissa, or Missy? <br />One is kinda dull and boring and weak <br />while the other is popular, caring <br />and sleek. <br />One loves her family and <br />the other depises the term, <br />Missy only loving her friends, <br />Not her family in turn. <br />While Melissa is more balanced <br />and families always comes first. <br />But for the love of god i cant decide <br /> which is worse. <br /> <br />Inside of me they both battle <br />and i think Missy is winning <br />Which kind of scares me cuz <br />wouldnt that be sinning? <br />Both believe in God <br />And both are smart <br />But Melissa's usually sweet <br />While Missy is more tart <br /> <br />But there is one more personality <br />that i forgot <br />Her name is Trinity and she is every <br />Good that Melissa and Missy cant top. <br />She lives Godly.... caring and sharing <br />She never once, tears dont the hall <br />Banging on walls <br />shes the one who couts to ten <br />Shes the one whos everybody's best friend <br />She is the one I wish to constantly be <br />If it weren't for dumb Melissa and stupid Missy. <br /> <br />So... Im Schizo i dont need a shrink to tell me that <br />Maybe its a phase... <br />It can be changed. <br />But some how i know <br />no matter how little one may show.. <br />They will always be there... <br />Missy, Trinity, and Melissa alike <br />Or maybe they'll leave <br />and ill be able to choose just one to be...... <br />PSYKE! <br /> <br />_Missy_Trinity_&_ Melissa<br /><br />Melissa Ferrer<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/schizophrenic-2/
