I watch them from the corner of my eye. <br />(because I don't want them to think I'm weird) <br />I wonder how I could get what they have. <br />I wonder what happened <br />that made my own mom turn away. <br /> <br />Do they know I watch them? <br />Can they see the lump in my throat? <br />Did I blink my tears away quick enough? <br />Do they know? <br />I hope not. <br /> <br />I know it's a sin to envy. <br />I just can't stop myself. <br />I want to....I know how it seems. <br />It's embarrassing. <br />It's crazy to want somebody to love you <br />if they don't. <br /> <br />But, I still want a mom. <br />One that would come over and visit <br />and ask how the kids are doing. <br />One that offers me a hug <br />when she hears how I'm hurting. <br /> <br />One that loves me.<br /><br />Mary Nagy<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/will-i-still-go-to-heaven-if-i-envy-2/
