Yea, I'm there again, I'm here again <br />I can't believe, I can't comprehend <br />You can't expect <br />Me to genuflect <br />Your idea of a joint liberation! <br /> <br />Once again that bitter taste <br />Of inevitable anguish <br />And I'm too beside myself <br />To revere or cherish <br />Is this an ephemeron? <br /> <br />And I've reached the flatline <br />A state of blurring and apathy <br />Yea, and I'm a goddamn troglodyte <br />I'm reclusive and feeling useless! <br /> <br />My synapse breaks <br />Under the pressures I make <br />My synapse breaks <br />Under the doubt that you create <br /> <br />You're my closing thoughts <br />And you're my first blush <br />I'm full of daunting qualm <br />And I've had enough <br /> <br />Yea, I'm sick and I'm fucking choleric <br />I'm crestfallen and sometimes cryptic <br />But that's no excuse to keep me at sea <br />Remember I'm only as crazy as you believe me to be <br /> <br />My synapse breaks <br />Under the pressures I make <br />My synapse breaks <br />Under the doubt that you create <br /> <br />My anger races at a spastic speed <br />You're only after what YOU need <br />I can taste the rancor at the back of my throat <br />I'm helpless under your anemic clout <br /> <br />And, I'm in past my goddamn neck <br />In a sea of perplexity and neglect <br />Waiting for something to go horribly wrong <br />Bracing for a surprise that I knew all along <br /> <br />And I've reached the flatline <br />A state of blurring and apathy <br />Yea, and I'm a goddamn troglodyte <br />I'm reclusive and feeling useless! <br /> <br />My synapse breaks <br />Under the pressures I make <br />My synapse breaks <br />Under the doubt that you create<br /><br />Crazy Eight<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/first-blush/
