You were my dearest friend <br />created in our innocence <br />forged by private conversations <br />bonded by our shared experiences... <br /> <br />I turned to you during stormy skies <br />smiled with you under moonlit nights; <br />I freed myself through dinners and quiet outings <br />found strength in kind words and soothing blue eyes... <br /> <br />You held my hand when I was lost <br />trying to show me what I did not see; <br />guiding me through the rain and hail <br />leading the way back to my forgotten home... <br /> <br />All the while I was causing you harm <br />latching weights to your soul with every call; <br />dragging you under the waves every time I cried <br />shredding you apart with every desperate plea... <br /> <br />I tried to give the same love to you <br />to show you how much you meant to me; <br />tried to be a haven during your own gruesome wars <br />attempting to duplicate the essence for you to hold... <br /> <br />But it seems my shadows were too much for you <br />I couldn't tell I was slowly drowning you; <br />I never realized the hold they had <br />until you turned around and let me go... <br /> <br />By sharing my pain I made you a victim <br />when all I wanted was to make you my hero; <br />In my desolate need for a living Savior <br />I ended up committing the ultimate sin... <br /> <br />Now I am here barren and cold <br />the warmth you gave no longer with me; <br />forver forced to swallow the most bitter of pills <br />that by giving too much I wound up with nothing at all.<br /><br />Deana Rode<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/2005-the-most-painful-lesson-of-all/
