I've spent too much time wanting you back, <br />I've forgotten what I live for. <br />Yet I'm still lost in the black, <br />And oddly the pain is more. <br />Everything seems to be the same. <br />I wonder if anything matters to you, <br />As I sit carving in my arm your name. <br />It doesnt feel right when you say 'I love you'. <br />We're back together again, <br />But we're not as I thought we would be. <br />I'm still not willing to let you in, <br />Or reveal to you the real me. <br />So I give you up now, <br />And realize you're not mine. <br />I still wonder why and how, <br />And stop trying to reach the divine. <br />Be a whore and enjoy your hoes, <br />But these tears arent for you. <br />And even if only I know, <br />I am giving up on you too.<br /><br />Amber Green<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/giving-up-2/
