What will it take for you to love me again? <br />I offer you my heart and soul completely. <br />Is this not enough for you? <br />Do you see how much this is hurting me? <br />Maybe that is what you want me to feel? <br />So that I can feel some of the hurt I once gave to you? <br />It is working – I am hurting <br />I have a pain inside my heart that burns like a hot blade <br />Slowly slicing at me from the inside trying to escape. <br />I feel the hollow empty cavity of loss and rejection <br />As it rises into my chest taking my breath away, <br />Then sinks into the pit of my stomach, <br />With a hollow - very heavy weight. <br /> <br />I see you and can not tell you <br />All of the things I need to say <br />Instead we exchange empty words <br />My mind spins faster with all of the thoughts <br />And all of my feelings that belong to you <br />With all of the emotions I need to give to you <br />But I can’t - <br />I can’t seem to find the strength and the courage <br />To allow it all to escape from inside <br />So I listen to you speak <br />Not hearing anything you say <br />Just watching your mouth move <br /> I am lost dreaming <br />Dreaming of what could have been <br />What would have been? <br />What should have been? <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />26th May 2006<br /><br />CHARMAINE SIMPSON<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/could-of-would-of-should-of/
