I dont want you to help me <br />I dont want to be saved <br />the longer i live <br />the longer the pain lasts... <br /> <br />my heart aches, <br />and i know how to stop it <br />the cuts and bruises <br />are nothing to be afraid of <br />I do it myself <br />it makes me happy on the inside <br />instead of the mask thats always in place <br /> <br />so please dont try to help me <br />i dont want to scare you away <br /> <br />but if you try to make me stop <br />and bring the heartache back <br />im scared i wont talk to you <br />even though <br />i think <br />deep down <br />i like you.... <br />and that adds to the pain <br /> <br />knowing that you dont like me back <br />as more than just a friend.... <br /> <br />the more that i see you <br />the more cuts i'll have <br />because everytime i see you <br />its something i'll never have <br /> <br />i want all the pain to stop <br />i want to just die <br />i dont want to kill myself <br />i dont want to make anybody sad <br /> <br />i want to keep living <br />so that i can keep hating you <br /> <br />i hate you so much <br />i hate how you talk to me as a friend <br />i hate how you look at me as a friend <br />i hate how you help me as a friend <br /> <br />but most of all <br />i hate how i dont hate you... <br />i hate how i love you <br />i hate how i care <br />i hate how you keep me alive <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br />~~~~~~~~~~~~~ <br />Just a note...I wrote this poem a while back about some guy, but I no longer like him....he did something unforgivable....I want to delet it since these feelings no longer exists but since people seem to like it I might keep it here........ i dont think anybody really cares about this but anyway<br /><br />Jessica Anonymous<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/pain-92/
