The heart is pouring <br />My head is roaring. <br />Pull the duvet back over my head <br />I've got no reason to get out of bed. <br /> <br />Everything seems to be getting worse <br />I'm under some kind of evil curse? <br />I am better off not going out <br />Not whilst I know he's still about! <br /> <br />I feel like they have trapped me <br />Retaining me from being able to be free. <br />My moods keep changing I'm so up and down <br />Unable to even pull myself together to take myself off into town. <br /> <br />I try to find things to distract me around the home <br />But sometimes it's all too much, can't even answer the phone. <br />Staring at the same four walls is slowly driving me insane <br />But at least I'm safe and unlikely to be subjected to further pain. <br /> <br />I can't be around my friends that long <br />Cause I don't want to upset them or do anything wrong. <br />But I don't want to lose them completely <br />Why do I keep letting the past beat me? <br /> <br />I can't work, my brain's not up to the job <br />All I do is break down and sob. <br />I will miss working with some of the people there <br />But I had to leave, get myself some proper care. <br /> <br />I'm frightened of moving in with my Dad <br />That I will do something to spoil it and turn it all bad. <br />Living in a house full of people I don't know <br />Losing more of my independence, how much heartache is there to go? <br /> <br />Everything is being taken away from me <br />I don't know who, what or where I want to be! <br />Depression has taken it's evil hold <br />I just want to give up, wish I was dead and cold! !<br /><br />Hannah Davies<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/depression-39/
