somewhere in my darkness there was a spark <br />today it ignited rare thoughts of you <br />only seconds before.... <br />I had stuck the cold barrel of a gun <br />directly beneath the gap in my front teeth <br />and into the far reaches of my <br />ninety proof alcohol drenched mouth <br />squeezing the cheeks of my ass tighter <br />so as not to blow my brains onto the floor <br />I steadied my trembling hand <br />wishing instead <br />to paint the walls and ceiling <br />with all that remained of my love <br />___a masterpiece for martyrs <br />my humanity <br />I had drained with my last piss <br />death was inviting me over <br />for one last drink of my own self pity <br />I was ready to accept its invitation <br />when somewhere in my darkness <br />there was that tiny little spark <br />which ignited rare thoughts of you <br />.....it was then I knew I didn't want to die <br />without you Bitch <br /> <br /> <br /><br />Ted Sheridan<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-like-long-walks-on-the-beach-and-sunsets/
