Ever since the age of 16 <br />Don't know why I have felt this way <br />So worthless <br />Sexless <br />Just not worth a damm at all <br />Certainly not worthy of a good man's love <br />So out into the deadly, dangerous hours of the night I go <br />Searching for that one perfect criminal to make me a <br /> victim <br />Wearing next to nothing <br />I taunt and I tease <br />Pulling at his strings until he has no choice left <br />He must prove his power over me <br /> <br /> <br />Alone and afraid <br />So very afraid <br />Afterwards I feel so dirty <br />So damm dirty <br />Just like the worse kind of slut <br />Yet still I feel also a perverse pleasure <br />Pleasure that he did't listen <br />Taking advantage <br />Not taking no for an answer <br />Somehow in some strange way <br />It makes me feel better <br />As if I am the one in total and complete control <br /> <br /> <br />Makes no sense I know <br />Still as hard as I have tried to stop myself <br />I can't <br />Not a sex addict <br />Don't have some kind of fiendish fetish <br />This kind of life just feels right <br />Like this is what the good lord put me here for <br />To be the instrument to rid men of the evil encasing their <br /> wicked flesh <br />My body in a horror <br />Bruised, beaten, and bloody <br />Hates my mind so weak and helpless to resist <br />Paying off the very worst of my sins <br /> <br /> <br />Left alone with a friend when I was younger <br />Far too loving <br />Far too eager <br />To get close to me <br />I often wonder <br />Was it his actions that made me this way? <br />Is it because of him that I am such a freak? <br />A outcast amoug society? <br />Yes, sometimes I wonder <br />Even then did my sinful body <br />Young but so very well filled out <br />Did that body lead a good man become a monster? <br />Yes, if maybe that's why...... <br /> <br /> <br />I like to be raped <br /> <br /> <br />2007 Ramona Thompson<br /><br />Ramona Thompson<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-like-to-be-raped/
