I found it <br />the thing I’ve been searching for <br />searching for for so long <br />I found the lost ray of light <br />in this state total darkness <br />I can’t remember <br />ever seeing the light <br />I lost it all so long ago <br />when I was bruised and broken <br />I lost my trust <br />I lost my hope for happiness <br />I lost everything <br />but now I found something <br /> someone <br />and I find myself walking toward the light <br />the light I didn’t know I had <br />I’m walking <br />away from the darkness <br />away from the pain <br />I feel happy <br />I don’t remember ever feeling happy <br />I think <br />to myself is this real? <br />Or is it a just cruel joke? <br />If it’s a joke I don’t think I will survive <br />the downfall <br />I tell myself it is real <br />I just have to try to trust <br />I have to break down my walls <br />the walls I put up <br />to block the pain <br />to feel safe <br />but they left me trapped <br />and all alone <br />for they blocked out the happiness with the pain <br />and surprise surprise <br />just as I start to wonder how to break the walks down <br />they start to crumble around me <br />freeing me <br />telling me to trust <br />so I try it <br />I try to trust <br />and its not as hard as I though <br />I’ve never trusted someone <br />so soon <br />so quickly <br />is that a good thing? <br />Or am I setting myself up tp me broken and busied all over again <br />if I become broken and bruised again <br />I don’t think I can heal <br />but I want to try <br />I want to fight <br />fight the urge to build my walls back up <br />as they say there is no joy with out pain <br />I just hope the pain is in the past <br />and the future is filled with joy<br /><br />Scarlet .....<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/breaking-down-the-walls/
