I finally saw him at a party last night <br />It's been 3 months since he's out of my life <br />So short, so petit, so old for my taste <br />yet so heartlessly he had me erased. <br /> <br />He's about eight inches shorter than me <br />And the shoes I had on had 3-inch heels <br />We are an odd couple, you have to agree <br />None of his features match my ideals <br /> <br />He's about twenty years older than me <br />My god, in my eyes he looked like a giant <br />I think he is only five foot three <br />Why did I have to be so compliant? <br /> <br />His Welsh accent was absolutely sexy <br />His humor and wit were sharp as a razor <br />I loved his tatoos, his earings and his dog Lexie, <br />his look that intense and bright as a laser. <br /> <br />I saw him again and I felt it inside <br />His rejection had hurt me, I had cried and died, <br />How needy and stupid I'd been I realized <br />I had him in my head totally idealized <br /> <br />My eyes were searching for him in the room <br />I wanted to look at him long, to stare <br />To ask him why he put me in such gloom <br />How could he do that, how did he dare <br /> <br />I looked in the mirror instead; I looked good! <br />All men in the party had circled around <br />Trying to talk to me, to flirt all they could <br />My shortie was now not making a sound <br /> <br />I decided to stay with the guys and chat <br />I laughed, I giggled, I was a naughty brat <br />I drank, I smoked, I danced, I had fun <br />I was a hun, not a nun, and I liked to pun. <br /> <br />I left the party with a smile on my face <br />Could it be I was finally setting the pace <br />for a life so free of this painful rejection? <br />Maybe I didn't have to ask for affection <br />My inner paradise was my ultimate protection. <br /> <br />Written on April 29,2007 <br /> <br />To a friend who talked to me about my inner paradise.<br /><br />CeCe Lamberts<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/rejection-and-my-inner-paradise/
