how come at night <br />there is no longer any night <br />I worked so hard <br />to be able to find the light <br />but now <br />my walls of strength <br />give up the fight <br />they crumble at will <br />leaving me <br />exposed <br />hurting <br />and overwhelmed in darkness <br />I thought I was through all this <br />but it seems to be coming back <br />why can’t I just be comfortably numb again <br />oh how I miss that feeling <br />the one of no real feeling at all <br />no pain <br />no joy <br />it was all the same <br />but I was safe <br />I knew what I felt <br />and that it wouldn’t change <br />but know <br />my emotions are uncontrolled <br />now I never know what I will feel the next moment <br />for I know it will not be happiness <br />for that is way to rare <br />but will it be sadness <br />or depression <br />or anger <br />or will it be yet again another dark moment <br />or will it be one of those few moments of strength <br />oh those are nice <br />but they come to far apart <br />overwhelmed by fear <br />of the unknown <br />and what is next to come <br />it always grows worse <br />rarely better <br />so what can be worse <br />than the dark moment I have already come to dread <br />I can not even imagine <br />I don't want to imagine <br />but yet I live in fear of it <br />for I know it is yet to come<br /><br />Scarlet .....<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/overwhelmed-4/
