Walking backwards <br />I am set on a journey <br />I am in search of a lost soul, <br />I walk on the pathways <br />And through doors <br /> <br />I walk through the tombs <br />Where my children are buried <br />I am walking backwards <br />Throughout the nights <br />Watching you, <br />Making love to your secret love <br /> <br />Turning my face away from you, <br />I can see your tears fake <br />Drawn on your eyes <br />I can see the stains on my, <br />Velvet bed sheets… <br /> <br />Walking one more step backwards <br />I am coming to a halt for a moment <br />I can see the broken tile, <br />Against which you broke your nail <br />I can see the frozen lake, <br />By the side where <br />You stood like a beautiful statue, <br />While it was raining <br /> <br />One more step I saw you sitting <br />Waiting for me carrying an excitement <br />Melt deep within you <br />One more step backwards <br />I am at the same ferry <br />Where we met for the first time <br /> <br />And taking one more step backwards, <br />Now I am walking, through- <br />The paddy fields and coco… <br />Walking never stopping I am reaching, <br />The same courtyard of my old home <br />Now my legs are shivering, <br />I can’t climb up those steps, <br />My legs carry the weight of my sins… <br />I need a moment’s rest… <br />Before I can make my last step, <br />Inside into my mother’s womb… <br />Yes cuddling against the placenta <br />All I wish I will never have another birth<br /><br />Raj Thampi<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/walking-backwards/
