I was watching me <br />watching you <br />watching me <br /> <br />(both of us wondering what...the first move should be) <br /> <br />but Lord <br /> <br />overawed by the great love so obviously ours <br /> <br />I...dithered <br />(obviously the obvious) <br />you...dawed <br />(wasn't so obvious) . <br /> <br />IF ONLY - I hadn't got scared... <br />WHAT IF - you hadn't become afraid... <br /> <br />(which delayed our hugs and kisses for years...for years) ! <br /> <br />'F**k it! F**k it! F**k it! ' <br />I admonished an astonished wall <br /> <br />and you swear you swore the same next door <br />but added a few 'F**k its' more! <br /> <br />Love at first sight - <br />- and we just couldn't get it right! <br /> <br />I still miss those years <br />we could have had together <br />- but didn't! <br /> <br />'What ifs' & 'If Onlys' <br />grew like stdalactites and stalagmites <br />from cielings and from floors. <br /> <br />All I ever wanted was <br />everything. <br /> <br />All I ever wanted was to be <br />(unquestionably) <br /> <br />...yours.<br /><br />Dónall Dempsey<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/a-bad-case-of-the-what-ifs-if-onlys/
