I wish I didn’t love him so much <br />I wish I had him here to touch <br />I wish he wanted me a bit more <br />Instead of thinking im just some whore <br /> <br />I wish I hadn’t kissed him like that <br />I wish love were simple, cold hard fact. <br />I wish I hadn’t texted him today, <br />Hard to get is a tricky game to play <br /> <br />I wish his life didn’t make me so jealous <br />I wish I could feel like this about other fellas <br />I wish he didn’t live in a totally different place <br />Though in my head I see only his face. <br /> <br />I wish I had told him he was the one <br />I wish I’d let him know when this love had begun <br />I wish I could just make up my mind, <br />And know whether to be cruel or to be unkind <br /> <br />I wish I didn’t miss him like this every day! <br />I wish someone closer would make me feel this way, <br />I wish I hadn’t purposely led him to believe <br />That I’d find it so easy to simply leave...<br /><br />Amy Carmichael<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/my-deception/
