Every night as I lay down to sleep, <br />These thoughts seep into my mind, <br />Thoughts about overdose, <br />Thoughts about cutting to deep. <br /> <br />These thoughts are the ones I wake to, <br />These thoughts are the last ones I have, <br />As I lay my head down, <br />These thoughts are the ones that come, <br />While I sit in school and smile, <br />These are the thoughts that haunt me. <br /> <br />I want to drown, <br />Get hit by a car, <br />Hang from rope, <br />Bleed till I’m dry, <br />Drink till it’s dark, <br />Overdose on pills, <br />Cry every tear, <br />Leave this behind. <br /> <br />By fire, <br />By ice, <br />I want to end my life, <br />I don’t care how, <br />As long as it’s now, <br />Just end it all. <br /> <br />I know that she’ll cry, <br />I know that he’ll yell, <br />I know they’ll hate me, <br />For what I did, <br />But still, <br />Please let me end it. <br /> <br />I drink to feel good, <br />I cut just to feel, <br />Why do I try so hard, <br />When my effort does nothing at all. <br /> <br />I can’t go on, <br />This shell of a person, <br />I need to break out, <br />Get out of this hell. <br /> <br />Suicide haunts me, <br />Suicidal thoughts, <br />Suicide is in my mind, <br />Suicide runs how I walk, <br />How I talk. <br /> <br />Suicide, <br />A sad, <br />Taboo, <br />Good-bye. <br /> <br />Suicide, <br />It’s going to make them all cry. <br /> <br />Suicide, <br />Reserve me a seat in hell, <br />Suicide, <br />I’m getting out of this shell. <br /> <br />Suicide, <br />A sad, <br />Taboo, <br />Good-bye. <br /> <br />Good-bye.<br /><br />Emily E. Mehigan<br /><br />http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/taboo-thoughts/
